I could just pity myself. I mean, what was the point of working hard when you just end up where you were and forever will? I hate this part right here.

When you just had to pity yourself.

I just realized that I haven't eaten anything that would make feel full today, yet I feel so heavy to eat anything. Last morning, though, I would have thought I could eat a whole cake.

GIVE ME BACK MY CAKE.

It's a bit spooky now, isn't it?

2012 started off pretty well, it's just that I haven't been welcoming it well. When I first started school, the ministry decided to change our texts into English, so we might have gotten too used to it, because now, I, have not a single interest in learning the incredibly head-scratching science subjects in Malay. Not that I don't support the fact that we need to emphasize our language, but let us end our schooldays first shall we? And now they decided to put in bilingual texts. I wonder where they'll be pouring the Malay texts now.

It's not far now, the date that I've been waiting for nearly two months will come. Next week :) Ohh I haven't been giving that smile for some time now. And good news, I've been pretty diligent lately. I even folded everyone's clothes just now, just 'cause. Parents are outside the country now, I really won't say it's good because I miss my mom's cooking. How can I survive in boarding school, or study overseas if I'm mom-sick?! Hahaha whatever I've stopped thinking about the consequence for a long time. See? I haven't said, or written whatever for such a long time, it's been so long since! Wow the change me!

Lately I've been thinking about my ideal type. Since I am a blood type O, I guess I'm attracted to A types. And I can't stand the really shy and romantic B types but I tend to become friends with them. And so far I haven't known any AB types.

An O is extroverted and stable, and has strong leadership. I guess that's me alright. And do look for an A, who like my best friend, would ignore me. Then I'll try even harder to attract her attention. Introverted, but reasonable and thoughtful. That is so her. And I guess I would like my boyfriend to be like that too. Not someone romantic who would dine with me on a candle-lit table, or give me roses to make my day, or yes, express his feelings. It's frustrating but I guess O people like challenges, and getting an A's feelings out of her/him would be really nice. I want one who's very, and I mean very, reasonable. I mean why waste the pretty candles and put on fire in a tropical country when you can turn on the lights and fans at the same time (I like being environmental-friendly, so no air-conditioners)? Why give me roses when I like lillies (I still haven't decided on my favorite flower, probably none)? Why make it visible when it's much more fun tainted? 

Just so if you're interested, all of these might not be true, but some do exist in my personal life (underlined) and those that really don't exist in my circle (crossed) : source

"Blood Type A, the dreaming romantic
Sensitive person. You’re easy to be hurt from even a small matter and you are unnecessarily sensitive. You think in your way, interpret, and misunderstand. But hiding your own thought, you look like a nice person considering others and take care of your surroundings. You like the romantic mood, forget reality, and are indulged in fantastic world. Unexpectedly, you are a stubborn perfectionist…

Blood Type B, enjoyable optimist
Optimist who enjoys life. You can even laugh facing your failure. Having a romantic tendency, you sometimes have thoughts distant from reality. But if you enjoy liberal life way too much, you might make enemies unexpectedly. You should change your easy-to-give-up personality.
You should think over whether you give up way too fast…

Blood Type O, leadership filled with confidence
You have a bright personality and lead others well. Your kind personality doesn’t let you leave people in trouble. You want to make your life dramatic, so people around you might not be so comfortable. Don’t forget there is happiness in ordinary life. You are proud of yourself and don’t like other people’s interruption. You would like to live in your own way, but over-confidence might return to you as a poison. When you fail you will feel in a slump due to your confidence. Take it easy and don’t forget even you might fail.

Blood Type AB, consistency with your patience and concentration.
With your strong patience and concentration, you can do anything. You can back up to let work go smoothly and easily when you are involved with projects with others. Being interested in politics and environment, you are full of intelligence. You make others who don’t know as much as you do look foolish and show an authoritative attitude. Don’t look down on others. Remember you should respect others’ values and the ways they live."

I guess the reason why the O has so many parts underlined was that I am one and I know it. I don't know about others, but the underlines and cross-outs are from my opinions and observation. 

A: To my point of view of my best friend's personality, she is sensitive but not to feelings (we all call her indifferent) but to surroundings. She doesn't, well not really, take care of her surroundings but she's very observant. She'd detect just about anything. She does look like a nice person, but she's actually pretty cold. We became friends out of instincts (it really is because opposites attract). And the perfectionist part should be mine! (she'd teased me about crying if my shoes are dirty)

B: My B friend is very romantic. She likes any romantic gesture, like those in dramas and movies. And I'd scoff her, saying there's reality. But what she need is another B, who's just as romantic. And laughing while facing failure, I think that would be me. For her, failure is failure, not really the move-on type. But she's very kind, though it really is a give-and-take relationship, in a good way. There would be some points where you get a bit disturbed, but after hanging around with an A, I'd learned to face them off.

O: Ohmigod, I can't believe there are many underlines! But it's true! Sometimes you might not call it leadership, but bossiness though I've been controlling it well. I am kind :) (there's a catch now). I hate it when anyone interferes. An A really does keep it to herself, that's why I get on with her. As in my desk, I don't think I'm stingy, I let people use it. But I hate it when someone cleans up things like my desk. I don't know if it's personal but it happens a lot of time. Karma has a strong hold on me, and I don't really clean up anyone's desk because I don't want them doing the same to me. But that's why I'm nice, so that it's vice versa (it's how to survive). Over-confidence, that is a word to describe me. People keep saying that I might not able to, and most of the times they are right, but that really doesn't stop me. And there's only as much failure I could take. And yes the part where there's a catch applied to slumping when failing. I could become really passionate, but sometimes it turns me down. And around. I've been slightly introverted lately because of that passion I have and get into a really cold-mood.

AB: I am in no position to judge :) Though if from my point of view of AB's Kim Heechul from Super Junior (after observing, I think if I don't get an A, an AB makes up for it, since we have many similarities). 

Blood Type AB, consistency with your patience and concentration.
With your strong patience and concentration, you can do anything. You can back up to let work go smoothly and easily when you are involved with projects with others. Being interested in politics and environment, you are full of intelligence. You make others who don’t know as much as you do look foolish and show an authoritative attitude. Don’t look down on others. Remember you should respect others’ values and the ways they live.

Well, he really isn't visibly patient, but he's very subtle yet straightforward. I want that :)  This might help too.

Well, my A ideal type, come along will you? 

"We met for seven years," and with just that I burst into tears without even knowing why. I haven't experienced this type of emotion mentioned in the song. Kyu really could touch hearts, literally, with his story, his laughter, his face and most delicately, his voice.